Wednesday, June 29, 2005

a new life

So Ok..I'm the last person who should ever be telling my story but here goes

Life's funny..one minute your a carefree 21 year old with the world at your finger tips, the next moment, your life changes in an instant.

My boyfriend, John and i had been together for almost five years, we'd been through everything together, graduations,breakups, funerals ..everything..although we seemed incompatible, we had alot of things in common, we both loved to laugh, loved music and just in general had an amazing connection..Just after we'd moved to new york and into an apartment  ..that's when things started to get crazy

"Nikki,..let's go on vacation" John said one night while i was reading and he was bored because nothing was on tv

"Alright..but where?" I said putting my book down and looking at him

"I don't know, how about Paris or Maybe Monaco?" John said

"Let's go to Paris..i always wanted to go there..do you want me to make the arrangements?" I asked

"No..i got it..well there is one thing you could do..hehe" He said pulling me towards him

"Oh boy" I said laughing...

the next few days  as John made arrangments for Paris, i was going around trying to get everything done, first giving my notice at the New York Times and then going shopping for new clothes because lately my clothes hadn't been fitting right..

I was in the middle of  Saks, digging through the sales rack with my friends,Catie, Gina Annie and Natalie when i started to feel sick

"Oh my god!, i think i'm gonna be sick.." I said putting my hand over my mouth and running into the ladies room

"NIK..YOU IN HERE?" Cat yelled running after me

"yEAh..hold on!" i said as i got sick again, Annie opened the stall and Gina pulled my hair back ..

"Nikki..what the hell did you eat to make you so sick" Natalie said

" Nothing.. I'm pregnant" i said getting up and sitting on the toliet seat

"What?" the four  of them said at the same time

"Yup..I'm pregnant" I said

"Oh my god!" Natalie said

"Holy hell" Gina said

"Oh honey, i'm so happy" annie said wrapping her arms around my neck

"Does John know?" Catie asked kneeling down

"No i figured I'd tell him in Paris...guys..what am i gonna do? I can't have a baby." I said crying into Catie's shoulder 

"Nik..calm down..people have babies EVERY day...it's gonna be ok" Gina said handing me a water bottle

"Besides,when this baby comes, everyone is gonna help out and love this baby so much..it's gonna be nuts" Natalie said

"Nikki..the best part about you having a baby..is gonna be the baby shower..which is gonna kick ass" Annie said

 "Now before you blow chunks again..let's go buy something sexy for you to wear to break the news to John" Catie said

"Alright but something black because i'm already getting huge" I said crinkling my nose

A few days later, we got on a plane to Paris, which is like a 12 hour flight, torture for a person who wants to throw up every 10 minutes, i was cramming crackers down my throat.

"Are you alright?"John asked just outside of the terminal

"I'm fine..just nerves i guess" I said sticking a cracker into my mouth

"Oh Ok " He said turning around and giving our tickets to the flight stewardess and we got on the plane, We'd barely gotten our seatbelts on when i had to get up and go to the bathroom

"John ..let me out" I said because i was sitting on the window side

"Didn't you just go to the bathroom" He asked getting up

"So?  i have a weak bladder" I said walking passed him..as soon as i was out of his eye-line.. i ran to the bathroom and got sick.. why do they call it morning sickness when it happens EVERY  20 minutes

After i got sick..i cleaned myself up and walked back to the seat..

"John ..can we switch seats?" I asked

"I guess..why?" he asked

"Can we just switch..please?" I said irrated

"Yeah alright" he said finally moving

I wanted to tell him a million times durning the flight about the baby but i figure..him flipping out on a plane would not be good especially people tense about terrorists

We finally landed in Paris at 9o'clock(new york time) .. got our luggage and headed out to get a cab

"So what do you wanna do first?" John asked

"Can we just go to the hotel?..i'm really tired" I said

"Sure..but i have a romantic dinner planned for later tonight..do you think you'll be up for that?" He asked opening the door of the cab

"Absoutely" I said getting into the cab, as the cab pulled away, i put my head on John's shoulder and fell asleep

"Nik....wake up...We're here"John said as the cab jerked to a stop

"Hmm Ok" I said struggling to get my eyes open

"Are you alright?" John asked helping me get out the cab

"I'm fine..just a little jet lag" I said getting a look at our hotel

It was beautiful.it was a castle..it was like something out of a fairytale

"Oh John" i said

"like it?" he asked

"I love it" I said

"I'm gonna go check us in" John kissed me on the forehead and went inside

I couldn't believe it..i was in the most romantic place in the world and all i could think about was how i was getting sick every few minutes.. I looked around and everything was beautiful, the buildings, the statues ..everything..it was amazing..

"Nik!" John called to me from the doorway

"Yeah.?" I said

"We're all set honey" He said and went back into the hotel

I nodded and walked into the hotel. The Bellhop took our bags and opened the door to a room.

It was beautiful..it had a balcony,a big bed and a huge living room..it was like staying at the Trump Towers..

"This place is so amazing.." I said bellyflopping onto the bed

"I saw it on the website and figured this would be a perfect vacation spot" John said flopping down beside me,"Are you gonna be alright here by yourself for awhile..i have to go run a few errands" he asked

"I'm fine..what kind of errands are you running?" I asked

"Never mind..just stay here ..and when i'm done..i'll call you " He said kissing me on the head and walking out the door

"k" I said falling asleep

i must have been asleep for a number of hours because it was dark outside and the phone was ringing

"ello?" i said rubbing my eyes

"hey sleeping beauty.." it was John..

"Hi honey" i said sitting up

"Put on your most pretty dress and come downstairs"he said then hung up

I put on my black strapless dress..put my hair in a pony-tail and put on my highest heels and walked down to the lobby..

At the front desk,i asked some woman where i was supposed to go

"Hi my boyfriend just called and told me to meet him in the lobby?" I asked

"Oh are you Nikki?" the woman asked

"Yes M'am " i said

the woman came around the desk and started to put a blindfold on me

"Excuse me? what are you doing?" i asked

"M'am..your boyfriend asked us to do this..ordinarily i would think this is insane but please just go along with it" the woman finished tying the blindfold

"How am I supposed to find my boyfriend if i can't see?" i said

"I'm right here" i heard John's voice

"John..why am i blindfolded?" I asked

"You'll see" He said mysteriously then took my hand

We walked for about five minutes before we finally stopped

"JOhN can i take the blindfold off?" i whined

"No..not yet..and stop whining" He said

"Augh this is torture" i said

"Alright Alright..take off the blindfold" John said

I took off the blindfold and gasped..

In front of me on a Balcony  was a table, with champagne, red roses..everything you need for a romantic night

"Oh my god! John!" I said starting to cry

"Hold on before the waterworks start..i need to ask you a question?" John

"Ok" I said wiping my eyes

he got down on one knee, took my hand in his and looked up at me

"Nikki..will you marry me?" he said opeing a box with a square cut diamond with hearts all around the band

"Oh my god" I said

"Well?" John asked

"I'm pregnant" I said

"What?' he couldn't believe

"I'm pregnant" I said getting down my knees beside him

"WHOO!" he said picking me up and swinging me around  

"Augh! Put me down!" I said laughing

"So Ok..you never answered my question" He said putting me down

"Of course!" I said kissing him causing him to fall backward, i was still laying ontop of him when he put the ring on my finger

"I guess you won't be drinking the champagne" He said

"No but you can feel free to get drunk" I said getting up

He got up as well and pulled out my chair..

"Why didn't you tell me your pregnant?" he asked

"I wanted to surprise you" I said

"When are you due?" John asked

"Dec 24th..christmas eve" I said

"It's gonna be a merry christmas.." John said standing up and kissing me,"A toast..pick up your water glass"

I held up my water glass

"To Us and to our baby!" John said

"To Us and our baby" i repeated and we kissed again.

We spent the rest of our vacation alternating between sightseeing and staying in bed all day..before we knew it..it was time to head back to New York

We talked about how we would break the news about our engagment and the baby to our friends and family, we finally settled on having a big party and telling everyone at once.

Looking around our tiny apartment, i realized we didn't have enough room  for a baby

"We need a bigger apartment" I said to John just after we got back from Paris

"You're right but can we afford a bigger apartment?" he said

"Yeah, I think we can with my job at the Times and you putting in overtime at the store, i think we can afford at least a decent sized apartment" i said

in between Apartment hunting and planning the party, we were both stressing out and getting ready to kill each other..

"OH MY GOD!" I yelled one afternoon after tripping over John's sneakers for the thousandth time

"What now?" John called from our bedroom

"IF I TRIP OVER THESE SNEAKERS ONE MORE TIME" I yelled

"Ya know..you are starting to sound exactly like your mother" He said coming into the living room

"What?" i was so angry

"You heard me" He said

"Oh that's it" i said picking up his sneakers and throwning them out the window

"My favorite running  sneakers!" he said running to windows

"Now they're air-jordan's!" I said

"Not funny!" he said running down the stairs and picking his shoes out of the garbage bin

When he came back into the apartment, i was laughing so hard i was in tears

"Pain in the ass" He said under his breath

The night of our party, everyome we'd  have known came into town, we'd spent nearly a thousand dollars on food because  neither of us cooks.

Just before everyone arrived, we were getting dressed, I was attempting to squeeze myself into a sundress but not having any luck

"Augh..nothing fits anymore!" I said stomping  my foot

"Why don't you put on that black dress you wore in Paris?" He suggested

"I guess so .." I said  digging the dress out of the closet and putting it on

"Or..you could go naked?..which would be fine with me" John  said tackling me in front of the mirror and pushing me down on the bed

"Oh no you don't " i said attempting to get up," people are going to be here any second, john, oOo ..your squishing me and the baby"

"Oh right sorry" he said letting me up

"Great..now my hair looks like i just stuck my finger into an electrical socket" i said flatting my hair

Just then the door bell rang

"I'll go answer that while you fix yourself" John said

I tossed the pillow at his face. I heard him open the door and greet someone

"NIK" John called,"It's Stevanne and Michelle"

"I'll be right out," I called back

Over the next two hours, our parents, siblings, aunts uncles friends cousins, nieces and nephews arrived..our little apartment was FILLED with people

"ALRIGHT, Nik, you got us down here now what's the big surprise" My Cousin Louis shouted while John and I  were  in the kitchen

"I think we'd better tell them before the crowd gets restless" John said

"Alright" I took a deep breathe and walked into the living room

"EVERYONE SHUT UP.." Dina yelled

"Thank you D." I said rolling my eyes

"Everyone, I just want to thank you for coming and the reason that we called you here, is to tell you..we've decided to get married" John said

"FINALLY" everyone shouted together then everyone rushed forward to hug us

"Wait Wait there's more," I said

"What's else is there?" Stacey said

"I'm pregnant " I said

"Oh my god!" My mom said

"I'm too young to be a grandmother" John's mom said

"I'm going to be an Aunt" Stacey said crying

"I hope to hell you guys buy a bigger apartment" Dina said

"We are.." I said

"Alright..a toast.." my father said

"Wait..we have a surprise for Nikki and John" Vince said

Him, Newman and Sosseman  got in the middle of the living room, pushed back the couch and started to sing:

Were having a baby, my baby and me
You'll read it in Winchell's
That we're adding a limb to our family tree
We're pushing our carriage
How proud I will be
There's nothing like marriage
Ask your mother and father and they'll agree
He'll have toys, baby clothes
He'll know he's come to the right house
By and by, when he grows
Maybe he'll live in the White House
Our future gets brighter
But definitely
We're having a baby
We're having a baby
We're having a baby
My baby and me

I was laughing so hard because i love that show when i was a kid and couldn't believe that they'd actually got up and sang that for me..i also couldn't believe they knew i was pregnant

"You guys..that was so sweet" I said giving Vince a hug

"We wouldn't do it for anyone else but you Nik" Vince said

Well after our big announcement, everyone began talking at once until about three in the morning, when half our guests passed out on the floor and the other half passed out in the living room

As John and i were getting ready for bed,i was dead tired but i had to know how Vin knew i was pregnant before we told the rest of the family

"Johnny..how did Vince know i was pregnant?" I said sitting on the bed

"I uh don't know" John said turning around and walking into the bathroom

"You told him!!" I couldn't believe him

"No  i didn't " He started his teeth

"Yeah you did...we've only been back from paris for 7 days so you must have .." I stopped short

"Called him while we were in Paris ..yeah" He said then spit

"Why?" I asked

"Hey i was proud..." He said turning toward me

"the fact that we did it once and i wound up pregnant?" I said

"Well Hell ya " He said," You told Gina, Catie Annie and Nat before you told me"

"I did not" I said turning around and walking away

"You lie!" He called me on it

"Alright Alright ..i told them .." I confessed

"We're both guilty of having big mouths " John said getting into bed

"This is true..Night" I said and kissed him

"Night baby" He said kissing me then my stomach

Over the next few weeks, we were so busy trying to find an apartment, have a wedding and plan for the baby that we literally wore ourselves out..

the first problem...finding an apartment was solved quickly when we found a beautiful browstown in Brooklyn that had enough room for all our stuff that was in storage and enough room for the baby plus room for when our friend or family dropped by unexpectedly

the second problem was trying to find a church that could marry us as soon as possible that could also understand our "special circumstances", after visting about a half dozen catholic churches, we found a beautiful old church right in the center of Mahattan..that was settled

My biggest problem didn't really affect John because it was my minor problem.. my problem was trying to find a dress ..

The girls and i went shopping for a wedding dress

"May i help you?" the sales lady asked

"Yes i need to find a dress.." I said

"We're in a bit of a rush as you can see" Annie said putting her hand on my stomach which was getting bigger everday

"Ah... I see..follow me please?" The woman

"I betcha 10 bucks she brings out a white dress" Stevanne said

"I'll take that bet and i bet another 10 it'll look like something out of Rocky Horror Picture show" Gina said

"I'm in.." Catie said passing a 10 to Gina 

"You guys are awful... betting on her wedding dress!" Annie said then added ," 20 says the woman picks up a puke-green dress"

The woman stopped suddenly turned around and said,"I've got the perfect dress"

and then ran off.

She came back several minutes later, holding a white fluffy gown that even Rupaul wouldn't be caught dead in.

"Um..did we happen to mention..I'm pregnant..i don't think i should be wearing white." I said uncertainly

"Well ..if you pick your dress, we can have it dyed any color you choose." the woman said

"Ok..thank you.." Annie said taking my hand and leading me around the bridal store, after searching for about 20 minutes, i found a beautiful long sleeved kinda mini skirt  just like the one Julianne Moore wore in 9 months. It was perfect,

"What color would you like us to dye your dress?"the woman asked as she ran my credit card through the machine

"A very pale pink" I said

"PINK?" the girls said together

"Yes Pink" I said

"And for the bridesmaids?" the woman asked

 "Black and white strapless gowns .." I said

"How many?" The woman asked

"5" I said

"Ok..come back in a month and we'll do the final fitting " The woman said

The month went by quickly and pretty soon, it was the day of the wedding, I was so afraid that my dress wouldnt fit but somehow it fit! Between my mother, my friends and my cousin helping me get dressed, i didn't even get a chance to process what was going on until Annie was attempting to straighten out my hair

"Oh my god!" I said jumping up

"What? Did i burn you?" Annie asked

"No..I just realized I'm getting married!" I said

"Honey, you've been planning this wedding for over three months ..it just crossed your mind that your getting married?!" Catie said

"It just completely hit me! ..oh my god! am I doing the right thing?" I said starting to panic

"A little late to be backing out dontcha think?" Stevanne said

"No i could just run out and forget the whole thing!" I said

"You're pregnant you can't RUN anywhere " Natalie pointed out

"True" I said

"So are you gonna bail or are you gonna get married?" Catie asked

"Get Married" I said taking a deep breathe

"Good because i will never get your hair this straight or flat again" Annie said twirling the chair around to the mirror

I gasped, Annie and Catie had woven little flowers in my hair underneath my veil..it looked AMAZING i couldn't believe it, I started to cry

"Oh god..the waterworks are starting and that water-proof mascara only lasts through   light tears not hysterically sobbing so let's get moving!" Gina said clapping her hands

We got into the Limos and got to the church, standing in line it went Natalie, Stevanne, Gina Catie and Annie..before it was my time to walk down the aisle i peeked inside the church and saw John at the end of the aisle ... he looked amazing in his versace suit...i couldn't believe it..we're finally getting married!

As my father walked me down the aisle, i couldn't take my eyes off John, he seemed to lose control because his eyes were getting red,

We finally reached the end of the Aisle, where my father gave my hand to John,

"Who presents this woman to be wed?" the priest asked

"Her mother and I do" my father answered then sat next to my mother

"Dearly Beloved, we are gathered to celebrate the marriage of Jonathan Roger  and Nicole Victoria, if anyone has any objects to these two being wed ..please speak now or forever hold your peace" The Priest said

Nothing

"Jonathan, do you take Nicole Victoria to be your wife, to have and to hold through sickness and health until death do you part?" The priest asked

"I do" John answered

"Nicole Victoria, do you take  Jonathan to have and to hold through sickness and health until death  do you  part?" The Priest asked me

"I do" I responded

"May i have the rings please?" the priest asked Vince who was John's best man and asked Annie who was my maid-of-honor

"Jonathan Roger, please repeat after me..with this ring, i thee wed" The priest

"With this ring, i thee wed" He said putting the ring my finger

"Nicole Victoria, with this ring, i thee wed" The priest asked me

"With this ring, i thee wed" I said and started to cry

"With the Powers invested by me and the state of New York, I now pronouce you husband and wife " The Priest called,"You may now kiss the bride"

John gave me such a kiss that we nearly toppled over

"Ladies and Gentleman, I present Mr.and Mrs. Jonathan Distefino!" the priest called

The whole church errupted into screams and cheers..John and I practically ran down the aisle, we were so happy!

 In the limo, on the way to the reception, we sat back and just looked at each other

"Can you believe we're finally married!" John said

"I know..it's so surreal!" I replied, just then  i felt a little kick,"Oh my god..john!..the baby kicked!"

"What?" John said

"Yeah here put your hand here!" I took his hand and placed it on my stomach where the baby kicked again

"I think someone's happy!" John said then put his mouth to my stomach,"Are you happy now that mommy and daddy have made it official and your not illegimate anymore!" just then the baby kicked again

"I think that's a yes" I said laughing  

We walked into the reception, everyone stood up and cheered,  the Dj annouced our arrival and John took my hand and led me on the dance floor, where we had our first dance as husband and wife to Donna Lewis Now and Forever

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